at this hour.. i'm at kbox.. thoughts running thru my mind...
miracle happened?? i really doubt..
at least in my life i dont see any...
22yrs of my life i have wasted..
pls take me away frm this cold n meaningless world.
i'll be darn grateful. i tot .... is a turning point for me, but i am wrong so wrong.
how does it feel when someone care for u?
i really dunno..
i wish n pray hard tt i can feel it.. treasure it.. love it..
but i doubt i'll ever have the chance.
will i ??
is it worth to do all those?
feel sad for pple tt wun even give a damn to u??
always feels tt if she is happy everything is fine.
it does not pay to be a gd guy even though i am not.
it hurts. the feelin tt heart contract so hard...
crude, lots of vulgarities, fat, ugly and etc..
i cant see any gd point in the mirror.
i do feel very sad at times. but i dare nt to show it.
sometimes i really do need a person to listen to me.
to feel me. to understand me. to care for me.
but till now..
really a simple n abit will really touch my heart deep dwn.
actually i feel life is so meaningless now.
can give me a chance please? i really mean please...
a chance to really care for the one n only.
a chance to take care of someone.
a chance to show off all those stupid ideas i haf.
a chance to for myself to be control.
a chance to LOVE someone not to lk...
a chance to miss openly.
it that really so difficult?
maybe it is..
i still got many more to type out
but....
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MIRACLE DOES NOT HAPPENED TO ME...
i really hope it will...